Explanation why I feel like shit.
Before anyone makes any assumptions, this is pretty much 100% my fault.
I never wanted to admit this anywhere online, but I live with my mother. If I didn’t have student loans that are least $400-500 a month that are already in default, I would have moved out on my own after college.
Due to my incompetence my loans are starting to affect my mother’s credit (she co-signed). I feel really bad but at the same time she doesn’t realized I continually have expenses that I must take care of like fixing my POS car.
Again this is 100% my fault for making the choice to sign up for loans close to over 150k just because I wanted to go away to school. I don’t regret my decision doing so, but I should have planned it better.
Now I have to find a second job or at least try to get more overtime at work…if I don’t get fired for burning out quickly.
If you wonder why I am single, living at home with your mother along with being overweight are the main reasons why. The weight can be overcome or in some cases overlooked. Living with mom simply cannot. Just check every other okcupid profile that reminds me I won’t even get a chance with a banal long island “princess” because living at home is a automatic dealbreaker.
I am almost 31 years old and I should find a way to work through this. Again it is 100% my fault and I should be responsible for my own actions. Unfortunately there are a lot of complex emotions that make this difficult. I don’t know if I can even last at my call centre job for another month. I feel like crying, but its in my male DNA to keep it repressed.
So I cry inside until the next breakdown happens.
Attention: if you are in a relationship or if you regularly have relationships frequently. You can NEVER use the words “Forever Alone”
Thank you.
I spent 10 hrs playing NHL12 last night trying to “level up” my player.
This is one of the reasons why I haven’t got laid in over 3 years.
